How goes your life? I hope it’s going as well as mine. I recently celebrated my ten year wedding anniversary and it was fricking awesome! We went to SF for the night and had so much fun bar hopping and strolling the pier. We ate some great philly cheesesteaks at this little whole in the wall spot called Busters. And he took me for a trolley ride! I don’t think I’ve ever been on one before. My husband spoils me. And don’t tell him this but I totally love it! LOL
So it’s Nanowrimo and I have’t written a single line in my WIP. I just can’t seem to find the time. Or if I’m being really honest with myself, I just don’t want to pull time from my other hobbies to put in to it. I have put a lot of effort into my weight loss this year and made some great progress and I’m not ready to give the time I spend on that aspect of my life to writing just yet. I’ve lost 40 pounds this year and would like to focus on keeping it off during the holiday season. I feel I have my work cut out for me. It’s super difficult and it’s only the beginning of November!
Which brings me to a revelation I had this last month. I don’t think I’m author material. I don’t think I have the discipline needed to finish a WIP, especially on a deadline, and you know what? I’m surprisingly okay with that. Now, don’t get me wrong, I will never stop writing (cause I’ll go crazy if I do) but I may just post my stuff on smashwords instead of self-publishing. I like being in the background more than having the spotlight on me anyway. I have a pretty full life as it is with my beta/alpha reading and co-piloting a review blog ::cough cough:: www.celebrityreaders.wordpress.com ::cough cough:: with my bestie Lenore. (Two years this past September!) I have a pretty good view of the indie book scene from my little slice of interweb and don’t really want to change it right now.
I’m not going to be putting unnecessary pressure on myself if I don’t have to. Which is what I was doing. I felt guilt for not keeping to my writing schedule. And that feeling sucks, so I’m gonna let myself off the hook on this one. You can call it quitting if you like but I prefer to change my perspective and choose to be okay if I don’t complete this book. I’m in a really good place right now, and I’m just gonna sit back and enjoy the ride for a while. Things may change in the future but at this time I’m happy with my choice to not pursue self-publishing.
So, this is me checking in and letting you know I’m still alive and kicking. 😉 I’ll drop you a line in about a month or so when the stress of holiday shopping has me pulling my hair out at the roots. Till next time interwebs….