Still chugging along

So I missed last week.  Sorry.  I haven’t really been feeling well.  That’s my excuse.  It’s weak but I don’t care.

I haven’t written in almost three weeks.  That is a long time.  And I don’t feel like doing it anytime soon either. I just feel like crawling into a hole and reading and forgetting about everything else for a while.

Like a week.

But I won’t do that.  Tomorrow I will wake up and make myself write on the way to work.  Even if it is jibberish, I will just write.  I want to finish.  Really, I do.   I just want to read my hundred books I purchased more.  I need to prioritize.

I have about 25,000 words in so far.  About a third in roughly.  Most books that are not fantasy are anywhere from 60,000 to 90,000 words.  At least that is what my research suggests.  I am having a hard time with my characters right now.

Actually, I am mad at them.  Chris is a bit of a D-bag.  I love me a bad guy but he is persuing Cece pretty aggresively.  She is still in love with him (he broke her heart once already) and it’s muddling up her head.

Plus, she has a boyfriend.  Tanner.  He is sweet.  Not to mention….. you know what?  I am gonna stop now.  Why buy the cow when the milk is free right?

Hmm, maybe I should give my milk away for free…..

Oh dear, that didn’t translate well did it?

I feel like I need a crit partner.  But I am not done with my WIP (work in progress for the layman) yet.   What is a crit partner you ask?   Well, they get switched up with betas pretty easily.  I don’t need betas though.  I have those already.  It is my understanding that a CP trades works with you and you proceed to mark up each others manuscripts.  Constructive criticism is very difficult to come by.  Most people just like to tear your work down by pointing out all the flaws in your story.  It’s important to have a CP you can trust.  We are helping each other out here.  You scratch my back, I scratch yours.  A CP should point out the holes but also suggest ways to correct them.  I need this specifically.  I need someone who can suggest details that I may be leaving out or let me know when a scene doesn’t belong.

Only I haven’t finished yet.  I am getting impatient again.  This is an issue I have been struggling with, well, always.  In every aspect of my life.  It doesn’t sound that disasterous does it?  But it is.

Instead of writing I am jumping ahead to covers and marketing and betas and CP’s.  It takes time away from my writing.  Maybe I have ADHD.  I don’t know.  I do know that I need to suck it up and get my ass back to work.

So that is my goal this week, sucking it up and just writing.  This is a short post, I know.  I will leave you with this.

“A writer is someone for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people.”  Thomas Mann

Thomas Mann was a german writer who won the nobel prize in literature in 1929 for his novel Buddenbrooks.

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